Blue Funk

I haven’t been blogging because … well.. I’m just not in a good place right now.

That pretty much sums it up.

I’ve got nothing positive to blog about.  Nothing.  It may sound a little drama queenish, but it’s true.

I’m in such a funk I can’t even make up good material to  blog about.

I’m still not working (although.. there are more prospects out there which I’m hopeful for) and I’m miserable not working.

I’m bored

I’m tired

I’m cranky

I’ve lost my ’spark’

My husband summed it up best by saying that in general.. I’m  just pissed off at the world.

Really though, I’m just not happy and for once in my life I’m not sure what to do about it.   I have no clue to how get myself out of this funk that I’m in.

So let me apologize in advance, because for a while, blogging will be sparse…….at least until I can find my ‘happy place’.

In the mean time, I’m going to start by recharging my batteries during tomorrow’s holiday and then well.. I’m gonna have to take it day-by-day.

Finally, speaking of tomorrow’s holiday, please don’t forget to remember those who have served our country!

Run Run Run to CVS

OK.. I know right.. I’ll get to why I’m not blogging more in a later post.

If you want to start “CVSing” (it’s addictive …. but oh so much fun) there’s an outstanding deal going on this week that can give you a great start.

This week* at CVS if you buy two Neutrogena sunscreen products you will get back $10 ExtraBucks.

I went this afternoon and bought this (based on the twitter from Iheartcvs) :

Yep.. that’s a 1.0 ounce trial size bottle of Neutrogena Ultra Sheer 55 SPF that I bought for $1.99.  The bottles can be found at the front registers or in a small clear bucket in/around the cosmetic section.

$1.99 x 2 = $4.16 (with tax)

When you get back your ExtraBucks, you’ll have made a profit of $5.84.

FREE.MONEY!

You’re Welcome

*Since CA and NV are going through a Longs/CVS conversion.. I’m not sure if this works there or not.  Sorry!

Jet Setting and More Savings

What a crap-tastic title huh?

The husband and I will be flying to LA tomorrow.  His 92 year-old grandfather passed away yesterday evening.  We’re going out to put the “fun” backing into funeral.

Ok.. maybe not.  But we are going to help his parents out with anything and everything they might need.   Hubs’ trip will be longer than mine:  J-Art is getting married next weekend (insert “Squeeee” here), so my trip to LA will be abbreviated so that I can be back in TN in time to drive the 4 hours across the state to the wedding site.   Whewwww…. it’s a good thing I’m not working or I have no idea how this schedule would work (I have a feeling it would require taking vacation….).   Maybe it’s a sign….there’s a reason I’m unemployed right now.

So.. posting for the next week may be scarce (like that’s unusual), but then again, if I find myself with some down time,  I’ll try to fire off a post or two.  Just know that I truly have not fallen off the face of the earth …again.

Ok.. that’s about it for the Jet Setting.  On to the Savings part of the program.

I promise I’m not going to keep doing this…since this isn’t a shopping/savings blog, but I want to share my latest 2 CVS haul because I’m SUPER EXCITED about them.

The first trip was on 4/19

Total Spent: $9.91

Sorry for the crappy photo.

So the take home was as follows:

• Tresemme:  3/$10 – Had 3 $1 coupons — Total:  3/$7
• Edge Shave Gel:  $2.89
• Oral B Floss:  $2.88 x 2 — Total:  2/$5.78
• Loreal Hip Eye Shadow Duos:  Buy One/Get One Free (BOGO) $7.99 — Had two $1 Loreal Paris coupons — Total:  2/$5.99

So, my total, before coupons was:  $26.64.  I had another $5 off $25 coupon, which brought the total to $21.64.  Then $5 in coupons (see above) made the total $16.64.  I used $7.99 in CVS ExtraBucks (ECB) that I had from a previous purchase, so after tax ($1.26) my total ended up being $9.91.   I was pretty happy when I also earned $11.89 ($5 for the Tresemme, $2.89 for the Edge, $2 x 2 for the Floss) in ECB for future purchases!

On the first trip, I spent less than $10 and earned more than $11 in ECB.  Not too shabby.  However, it was nothing like today!

The second trip: 4/22

Total Spent: $0.66

Yeah.. you read that right.  I spent 66 CENTS on all of that!  Here’s the break down.

• Tresemme (second verse..same as the first):  3/$10 – Had 3 $1 coupons — Total:  3/$7
• Bayer:  $2
• Dove SkinVitalizer:  On sale at CVS for $4.00 (normally $12.99).  Had two $3.50 coupons.  Total:  2/$1.00 (I’m giving one of them to my mom, since I don’t need two)

So, my total, without coupons was:  $20.01.   I had a $4 off $20 purchase, which brought my total to $16.01.  Taking off $10 in coupons (see above), reduced my total to $6.01.  Tax ($0.65) made my total $6.66 (UGH!).  I paid with $6.00 in ECBs, leaving my total out of pocket cost to be $0.66!!!!  Oh.. but I’m not done yet (I should totally be selling Sham-Wows or something)! (wow.. there are alot of exclamation points in this post).   I got another $5 in ECBs for the Tresemme purchase and $2 for the Bayer purchase.  That’s right:  I spent $6 in ECBs and got back $7.  Using that fuzzy math.. I actually made $0.34 profit!

Like… SHUT UP!   I’m addicted!   I actually had to drive to 3 different CVS stores to make the last trip work out so perfectly (the first two stores were out of the Dove SkinVitalizer) and it took a little bit of pre-planning to get the dollar amount (ECB spent vs. received), but I did it!  I actually made a profit on my 3rd trip out!

Alright.. enough celebrating my new shopping skills.  I gotta go convince Priceline to give me a rental car for super cheap and pack.  Any thoughts and prayers you can send toward the hubby’s family are always appreciated!

Smart Shopping

So by now you all know I’m unemployed.  With unemployment comes some financial stress…and saving where one can is always helpful.  I’ve been clipping coupons for almost a year now.   At first, I just had the mind set of saving the cost of the paper (or $2 in my case).  As long as I used $2 in coupons, it was a wash.   Then a few sorority sisters of mine turned me on to this website:  Southern Savers

Basically, Jenny (the site owner) goes through the major drug store ads and several grocery ads and shows you how to use the store sales, manufacture coupons, and customer loyalty programs to get items for ridiculously low prices.

I’ve been reading this website for a couple of months now.   I couldn’t believe that people were getting shampoo, razors, and OTC medicines for FREE!   And, always up for a challenge, I wanted to see if I could do it too.

After a week or so of small purchases, I made my first major purchase today:

I got all of this for $20.34

$20.34/14 items = $1.45 for each item!!

What’s crazy is this really isn’t a great deal.  Most people go in to a CVS or a Walgreens and leave with much more for under $10, but I was happy with my haul.

I was craving a small shopping spree and I had some CVS Extra Bucks rewards that I needed to use.  CVS Extra Bucks (EBs) are basically part of CVS’s customer loyalty program.  You sign up for the little customer loyalty card they have, and they have these coupons or CVS ‘money’ that print after you buy a certain product.  Those coupons can then be used, like CASH, for almost anything in the store.   They do expire about 2-3 weeks after they are issued, so you have to watch that.   I had several that were burning a hole in my pocket, and CVS was having some good sales.

Here’s how my haul breaks down.

Let’s start:

• The Air Wick Air Fresheners.   They were on sale for $4.99 (regularly $8.99) and I had two $4 off coupons.  Total paid for both: $1.98!!  (On a side note, I don’t think the coupons I had were really good for these air fresheners but the CVS lady took them.. so I’m not complaining)
• The Colgate Toothbrush:  Was $3.99 and I had a $.75 coupon.  Total paid : $3.24   I also earned $3.99 in EBs.   So.. basically, CVS gave me $.75 to take the toothbrush.
• The Peeps were on sale 50% off.   $1.50 for both boxes
• The Husband somehow lost his travel bottle for shampoo, so that’s the little red bottle there.   Total:  $1.99
• The Viva paper towels were a bit disappointing.   I paid $7.09 for the pack (I had a $.40 coupon).   I got back $2 in EBs (and we needed paper towels), but the rolls are small.
• The Dove shampoo was BOGO (buy one, get one).  I had two coupons totalling $2.50.  The one bottle was $4.99.  Total for two bottles of Dove shampoo/conditioner:  $2.49 ($1.25 each!!!)
• The Softsoap Body Wash was $4.99, and I had a $.75 coupon.  Total Paid:  $4.24.    Again, I got $4.99 EBs for the purchase, so CVS basically gave me $.75 to take the body wash
• The Pantene was the steal of the day.  CVS was running a 2 for $7 deal with a $2 EBs return.  I had two coupons for $3 off.  So I got 4 for $8 and then got $4 in EBs.  It’s like getting them for $1 each!  (The husband LOVES this stuff. I think he’s set for a while on shampoo!)

So.. when you add that up, my total was around $30 after coupons. I had a $5 off $25 purchase, so I used that, taking the total to $25.  Then I had $8.50 in EB from past purchases, so that took my total to about $17.   When you add in the tax (which is calculated on the PRE-COUPON price.. which I didn’t realized until I got home.  WTF?  That’s a scam if I’ve ever heard one!) I finished at  $20.34.

The best part though:  I used $8.50 in EB but I left with $14.98 in EB for future purchases!!

If you were to take the $14.98 out of my total, I essentially paid (fuzzy math, as my husband would say):  $5.36 for the haul.

I also have some Walgreen’s money (similar to the CVS EBs) to spend, but can’t find anything to use them on this week.  I think instead of trying to juggle two drug store savings plans, I’m just going to keep on “CVSing” my way to free stuff!   Woot!!

…And my flippy-floppies

So.. the other night the hubby and I decided to go out for a date night.  It would be the first real date night we’ve had in  many a moon.. you know.. due to the employment circumstance.

Anyway..I decided I wanted to stop at .. well.. a store that sells “adult” based “novelty” items.  I’m hosting a bachelorette party in a few weeks and I wanted to check out some products.  There may/may not have been another product that I was searching for.   I plead the 5th.

So.. we decided to stop at the store between dinner and our movie (Monsters vs. Aliens in 3D.  SOOO good.  Yes.. I see the clash in maturity:  7:00 pm dinner with ADULT friends, 8:30 trip to ADULT store, 9:40 Disney cartoon. I don’t judge people….)

When we entered the store, we were the only customers and the two girls behind the counter, dressed in various forms of goth/punk/poor-college-student, were LOUD.  I’m not talking:

“I work in a store where most of the merchandise is considered taboo in the bible belt.. oh look.. a new dildo”  loud.

I’m talking “HOLY HELL, BAR THE DOORS & GRAB YOUR EARPLUGS, WE’RE GONNA BE OBNOXIOUS THE ENTIRE TIME YOU’RE IN THE STORE…AND LET US KNOW IF WE CAN SHOW YOU ANYTHING IN THE GLASS CASE” loud.

For a moment I thought about just walking out, but knowing that I was only there “to look” and then leave, I sucked it up.  The hubby..was annoyed.  In the mean time, the girls (and I swear.. no older than 21.. max), decided it would be fun to prank call the local rap/hip-hop station.   Since they had their volume (and the radio volume) stuck on “OH MY GAWD MY EARS ARE BLEEDING” high.. it was hard not to overhear them.

Basically, they wanted some song about “a boat” played and had been calling almost hourly until the DJ, after being casually threatened with S&M techniques, agreed to play the song.   After a brief chorus of “Squees” from the loud twins, they hung up the phone and proceeded to launch into their own rendition of the “boat” song.

It was only then (when I was more paying attention to what they were saying and less trying to turn them down in volume) that I realized what they had been requesting.  I looked up quickly to see one of the girls staring at me.

Me: “Did you just request ‘I’m on a Boat’ from the SNL skit with T-Pain??”

Girls: “SQUUUUEEEEEE  YES.. WE LOVE THAT SONG…. WE KNOW ALLL THE LYRICS”

Girl #1 begins to sing….. “I’m on a boat.. I’m on a M-F- Boat”

Me:  “They play that on the radio??  In KNOXVILLE?”

Girl #2:  “Yep.. that and ‘Dick in a Box’ and ‘Jizz In My Pants’.  We know the lyrics to them all”

Me: (2 10 decibels louder than normal) “OMG.. I LOVE ‘I’m on a Boat’.   I didn’t know they played it on the radio.  Do you think you can get it on I-tunes?”

Girls: “SQUEEEEE.. (singing) ‘I’ve got my swim trunks.. and my flippy floppies’“

Husband: “I believe we’re done here” (dragging wife out the door… girls getting louder as they follow us out).

(End Scene)

So I looked.  OF COURSE you can get it on I-tunes.  But don’t just download it.

Enjoy it.. because it’s fucking awesome!  (it’s also the un-censored version.. so you know.. you’ve been warned)

Ok… now I’m off to pick up all my flippy floppies (oh..you know from now on that’s what I’m going to call them) laying around the house before the husband comes home from his ‘business’ trip.

P.S. On a side note:  as the husband is dragging me out of the adult store, another couple walks in.  The male looks familiar but I can’t place him.  The female looks well…like a prostitute.  Anyway.. as we get into our car we notice that our car was the only car in the parking lot.  So how did the other couple get there?   They were chauffeured to an adult store in a limo!!   A limo that was awkwardly and unsuccessfully trying to make a 3-point turn at the far end of the parking lot.  Once it was facing the correct direction, it pulled up right in front of the entrance and waited.   Easily the most bizarre thing I’d seen all week (and I had just left an adult store… so that’s saying alot).

Opps…

I haven’t died.. I haven’t been abducted by space creatures…

I’ve just been on hiatus.

There have been job interviews, job fairs, cold calls, and networking classes.

I’ve baked (a ton actually… several batches of cookies and a cake), cleaned the house, purged the attic..FINALLY, made three trips to Goodwill and two to the city dump.

We’ve had friends over for Wii-weekends, and I’ve gone on a road trip.

I’ve read 16 trashy romance novels and played a little over 10 hours of DDR (I’m so rockin that out too!)

I’ve  been learning the wise ways of coupons, “CVSing”, and how to use value customer programs to the best benefit of my pocketbook.  The husband even said HE was impressed at how well we had our ’spending’ under control.. which lead to the conversation of why it wasn’t this ‘tight’ when BOTH of us were working. (hum.. gotta figure out how to get out of that one!).

I’ve been planning a bachelorette day party, for 8 people, in a town 180 miles away, for a wedding (where I’m the only attendant on the Bride’s side) that’s to take place 2 weeks before the wedding.  A wedding which is taking place 1 week before my first anniversary.

Finally, the hubby is going away on a business trip tomorrow, and I’ve been running around trying to get things in order for that.

Wheeewwwww… So.. forgive me for not being all blog-chatty lately, but I’ve been a little preoccupied.

I’ll do better soon.   Promise.

As the Days Run Together

So.. my typical day:

• Get up between 9:30 and 11:00.  Grumble about how unfair it is…
• Make a ‘poor girls’ latte (sugar free vanilla syrup, strong coffee, heated milk that is ‘foamed’ by heating it in the microwave and whipping it with the magic bullet)  and some Pop Tarts
• Fire up laptop
• Log into Facebook, LinkedIn, Yahoo Finance, Jobs Central (unemployment job posting site), and Google Reader
• Pull up spreadsheet of pending application, ‘to apply’ list, and contacts
• Stare blankly.. wondering how exactly I’m going to get us out of this mess
• Pull up e-mail
• Pray someone has responded to an application or request.  Usually get only junk mail from shopping sites I was formerly able to afford.
• Glance at clock: It usually reads between 2:30 and 4:00
• Wonder where the day went.
• Decided to have ‘lunch’ before deciding what to make husband for dinner
• Take a quick ‘Trashy Romance Novel” break during lunch
• Glance at clock:  Holy Shit.. how did it get to be 7 pm??
• Make quick dinner
• Feed Husband
• Run through the DVR to free up space for the next days recordings
• Return to laptop to read about the market closings, job conditions, and finish any necessary job application.  Document on “Open Job Aps” spreadsheet
• Make list of applications to follow up on the following day.
• See Husband off to bed around 11 pm
• Play about 60 minutes of Dance Dance Revolution to fulfil Lent promise
• Cool down from DDR with another round of Trashy Romance
• Quietly sneak into bed between 2:30 and 4 am.
• As I’m drifting off to sleep… vaguely make the promise to get back on a regular schedule

It’s like the movie Groundhog’s Day .. no matter what I do differently… the day is always the same.   ALWAYS.

I need something to get me out of the house, so this week, I’m cleaning (In-laws are coming for a visit this weekend), baking (which is really not needed in this house right now), and looking into volunteer work around the community.  Anything to get me out of the house, but preferably something I’d like to do (like volunteer with the Girl Scouts or the Humane society).

Lent update:  The first week of Lent I missed the Friday and Sunday.  Same for last week:  I missed Friday and Sunday.   So this week.. the goal is to not miss a day.  Hopefully.

Just Call Me Betty Crocker….

I got the baking bug this weekend.  I originally thought that being unemployed would mean that I would have a ton of time to bake, try new and exotic recipes, and test out the legs on my KitchenAid mixer.

I’ll pause to wait for you to stop laughing.

Anyway, this weekend was cold, gray, rainy/snowy, and overall just bleh!  And what better to do on a Bleh kinda day than bake?  Plus I need to change to my daily “wake at noon, look for job, play a little Wii, bore myself silly until dinner, read trashy romance novels, force myself to fall asleep by 3 am” routine.

Round 1:  Fudgie Wudgies.

I got the recipe for these out of one of my many (and I mean.. many) cookie cook books.   Think brownie with chocolate chip pieces, only in cookie form.  They have a nice crunch edge with a chewy middle.  The Engineer loves all things chocolate and I figured these would do.   He agrees that they are fabulous.   Next time though, I’ll make a double batch, as one batch only made 2 dozen cookies.

Round 2:  The Piece de Resistance — my very first Butternut Cake!!!

This cake has a story all it’s own, and I’m sure I’ll butcher it.    This cake is a family tradition for my husband.   His paternal grandmother made this cake and the Engineer’s father fell in love with it.  So she  passed the recipe to my Mother-In-Law.   My MIL has made the cake for pretty much every family event that I’ve been to in the last 6 years.  There is rarely much cake left over by the end of the weekend, and as a matter of fact, in 6+ years I’ve been around, I’ve never had a full piece of butternut cake to myself.    For as long as I’ve known the Engineer, he’s spoken nothing but praise and adoration for this cake.   One of the his first requests, once we finally tied the knot, was to get the recipe for this cake.   I had made a mental note to do it, but kept forgetting to ask my MIL for it.  Plus, to save my life, I couldn’t find the special extract needed to make the cake.   As luck would have it, the last time we were visiting the Inlaws, my MIL gave me a bottle of the extract and the recipe!  Because she’s that awesome.

See what a pretty yellow the cake is!   It’s too bad I think the icing (made with pecan pieces) isn’t as pretty.   Good thing it tastes delicious.

The recipe is pretty basic: butter, sugar, eggs, flour.  What makes this cake special is the flavoring.  Instead of a vanilla flavoring , the cake uses a butternut flavoring (Side note:  if vanilla were used as the flavoring, this would make one killer white cake… note to self.. must try).   The butternut flavoring is a bright orange color but mellows to a soft chickadee yellow once incorporated into the batter.

As I was making the cakes, the Engineer kept coming into the kitchen to ’supervise’.  Supervise what exactly, I don’t know.  He tasted the icing (a traditional cream cheese icing with butternut flavoring and pecan pieces) and slowly grinned.   I think his words were “you’ve done well grasshopper”.   In the picture above, there should be a distinct icing band between the layers.  Only problem was that I ran a little low on icing.  My MIL makes 3 8-inch cakes and I made 3 9-inch cakes (like the recipe called for.. plus, I don’t have 8 inch cake pans), so there wasn’t as much icing to go around as I had hoped.   Next time, I’ll make more icing.

Oh.. I wanted to mention that I used this cake as an excuse to buy some European-style butter.     I’ve used it before on chocolate chip cookies but never in cakes.   Holy Shit:  never again will I make a cake from scratch without using European-style butter.   It’s got a bit more butterfat in it that gives it a richer flavor.  The butter is not that much more expensive than regular butter, and my only complaint is that I can’t find it in sticks (I can only find it in 8 ounce blocks).  Please note:  the cake would be great with any ol butter (as long as it’s fresh), but OMFG… the European-style stuff is fantastic.

Now, the Engineer and Lux will tell you that this cake is best after it has time to ‘mellow’.  So on day 2,3 or 4 the cake is at it’s prime.   The Engineer did cut a piece today (as you can see from the above picture).  I eagle-eyes him the entire time he ate that little piece of cake. You see, since I’ve known my husband, I’ve used his sweet tooth to my advantage.  I’ve baked him everything under the sun: cakes, cookies, candies, pies.   But things get a little fuzzy in our house when I attempt to make something that his mother always makes.

You know the age old dilemma: “will it be as good as his Mom’s?”.  In my case, the one thing that I keep trying to make better than my MIL is chocolate chip cookies.   I’ve probably tried 10-15 different recipes and while my husband will concede that they are good phenomenal tasty delicious righteous out-of-this-world, when I ask if they’re better than his Mom’s.. I always get the same response:

“They’re different than my mom’s.  I really can’t compare the two”

Which really means “FAIL”.

Lately, I’ve given up on chocolate chip cookies and moved on to other kinds, hence the Fudgie Wudgies from above.

With the butternut cake, I tired to put my need to be ‘as good as’ behind me.  My MIL has been making this cake for more than 30 years, so I can’t be expected to knock it out of the park on my first try.  But I was pleased when he admitted that the cake was really good.  Although, he did stated that he couldn’t make a fair comparison to his mother’s until the cake had had proper ‘mellowing’ time.   So for now, the verdict is that I made an acceptable ‘replica’ of a butternut cake.

I’ll take the win for now.

Confucius Says…

From my fortune cooking Friday night.

I kinda wish it had said something more about the timeline of the difficult times.. but I wasn’t going to push it.  I mean.. it is just a cookie.  Let’s hope that I can keep the laughs coming because it’s the only think keeping me from sleeping 12 hours a day and giving myself an ulcer the other 12.

The job market sucks.   Being unemployed sucks.   Living on one income (and unemployment) sucks. Not being able to shop (especially now that all the stores finally have the cutest flats in the world in stock) sucks.  Not having anyone to talk to during the day but the cats and a husband (who gets a little irritated when you keep talking to him while he’s trying to work) sucks.

Being able to stay up until 3 am playing the Wii, sleeping until 11:30 the following morning with no guilt, eat gummy bears and Pop Tarts for breakfast (at 12:30 pm) and being able to wear yoga pants and t-shirts 24-7…..well.. that doesn’t suck.

Our Trash The Dress Book and a Lent Update

So I wrote in the last post about how our wedding photographers had called us to let us know our Trash The Dress book was in.

The book is just fantastic.   It’s around  5″ x 7″ and the pages are a nice photo quality matte finish on a thick stock paper.   I love that the pictures are matte because we’re planning to use this book as a coffee table book and I hate to think about people getting finger prints on my pictures.  I mean… I’m not horribly anal about people touching my pictures.. but then.. this IS one of my wedding books and I’d like it to stay in good condition for … well… a while.

Here is our lovely cover.

This is the front and back spine of the book.   I love that on the back of the book, we’re still fairly dry, but we choose a really wet picture for the cover.

Man.. I love this book.

One of the best parts about of these types of wedding albums is that you can have some of your pictures span the entire width of album.

Or.. you can set the pictures up like you would a traditional album.

We also love how the album lays flat.   The pages sit pretty flush and the spine of the book is constructed so that the album could be opened and will stay that way without any damage.

Our next project (and last…at least until the B-A-B-I-E-S come) with the Hopes will be to construct our wedding album.  That’s is going to be much harder that the TTD album because we have 800 wonderful and amazing pictures to  choose from and we can only use 10% of them in the album.   Boo!

It still shocks me that it’s been almost a year since we got married and my wedding album still isn’t done.  Time really does get away from you.  I guess that’s what I get for telling Wes and Danielle that I wasn’t going to be one of those brides… oh no.. I wanted my pictures done as soon as possible and that I would never wait for a full year before my album was finished.  Humph…lesson learned: never say never.

Finally, an update about Lent: Day 2 was good.  I woke up  with a horrible migraine and instead of going to the gym, I decided that I would instead do another round of DDR.  So 45 minutes of DDR later, I had fulfilled my 30 minute quota.   Day 3:  FAIL   It wasn’t until around 12:30 Saturday morning that I realized that I had just gotten so busy with job hunting, resume writing, networking, and errands (plus trying to remember that it was the first Friday in Lent, so no meat eating).. that I completely forgot to workout.   So to make up for it (besides money in the rice bowl), I’ll be doing an hour of working out today (and again.. more likely going to be 60 minutes of DDR.   What can I say.. I love me some Dance Dance Revolution.   I’m going to totally be sad when our friends, The Former Roommates, ask for their DDR stuff back. ).